don't want to be like this

again i dream of her last night...
what the fuck...
i thought i ask you to fuck off from my dream...
why you always keep on coming back to me...
and this time you bring your company...
haiz...
it's just so sad if you can't control your dream...

if i can justcontrol my dream...
i'll dream of the one i love...
every night...
every dream...
every second...

again...
again i'm drunk tonight...
again i miss someone special...
someone that i can't keep her of my mind...
someone taht is so special in my life...
she used to miss me when i'm not by her side...
and i don't understand what she feels by that time...
and now...
i think i know how she felt...
it's so ugly...
it's damn annoying...

i really wish that i could see her everytime i wanna see her...

dear...
please...
i don't want to be like this....